Monie's Crib

Sat, 21 Apr 2007 15:49:50 GMT

Mike, I hope you had a happy birthday!! *hugs*

Fri, 20 Apr 2007 05:00:57 GMT

This Friday, April 20th will be recognized as an "Orange and Maroon Effect" day, in honoring those killed in the Va Tech shootings.

Please show your support by wearing their school colors - orange and maroon.

Numb

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 17:07:48 GMT

State of shock for the Virginia Tech shootings

Just ...numbing

You can't even describe it, there are hardly any words

Nobody's fault but the shooter's

Feels like there isn't any justice in this world for his taking his own life

He took his own life

What can one do to prevent such a thing?

No answers

Could this have been prevented?

Dozens of questions

Last count as I've seen it - 26 injured / 33 dead

Jesus.

...

I've been having a keen sense of time and mortality lately. It was probably spawned by my mother having her throat operation a few weeks ago... no, in fact I'm sure it was spawned by it cuz as the date neared for her to have the operation, she kept telling me she was scared. And that she wanted to postpone the operation. I let it roll off me, telling her she had nothing to be afraid about, that the doctor-who-was-the-surgeon said it'd be only 10-15minutes operating. A quick procedure.

My mother telling me that she's afraid of anything is upsetting even though outwardly, I couldn't let it faze me. It was important that I didn't. I don't know if it's like this for other families...I imagine it would be, but here, we exchange strength. If shit goes wrong, it's imperative that at least one person remain unmoved so that the others have a hand-hold on whatever the situation might be. She's pessimistic by nature and I'm sure if I allowed her talking to "break" me, she would have cancelled the operation. She didn't though, things went smoothly and her voice is as strong as ever.

So yeah, mortality.

I can't remember what spawned the subject but I recall commenting to Kai, you know how in the Final Fantasy games, there's a spell (Doom, it's called) that places a number over your head and at the count down, once it reaches 0, you die. That's how I've envisioned people just walking around, with a huge (or maybe not so huge) number hovering over top their heads, ticking as a day, or month, or year goes by. He's like, yeah, everyone's auto-doomed, it's lame.

So yeah, time and mortality.

I hate thinking about such things, but when I do, it's like what the fuck am I waiting for?

I have such and such time to work on my master's.
I have such and such time to find a financially stable job.
I have such and such time to find a God-fearing, husband-suitable, family-oriented man, who's also got his shit together and complements me.
I have such and such time to marry and bear two children, or at least adopt two.
I have such and such time to ...to just be prepared for when my parents will be needing help going into their old age. And I know it's coming. I want to be there for them.

I'm boggled down by responsiblity and just the thought of stuff I need to accomplish. And shit that I want to do and it's like I can't see that invisible number over my head.

...

That's partly the reason why I want to go to Georgia and go to DragonCon and Amine Weekend Atlanta and blow the fuck out of my miniscule savings cuz I'll be hitting 25. Partly why I want to dye my hair purple and after that blue and maybe then green. Partly why I want to go on a road trip. I've been thinking about joining the PeaceCorps ever since I got out of high school - when will I get the chance, man? Cuz I can't see that number, yo. That number, that number...

Is it ..okay for me to be thinking about stuff like this? I'm not spazzing... but it's like, am I the only one that thinks about stuff? Do we really have as much time as people say? "Oh, you're young." Huh? People die young. Isn't life too short... to be going on and on and on and on about shit, complete and utter shit that... that just doesn't count? Wasn't it such a fucking waste of time to be spazzing in the dirt and arguing about the incident between me and Josh?

Energy wasted. Wasted energy feeling sorry for myself.

...

What's important and what isn't.

It depends, doesn't it?

Depends on the person?

But ultimately, we all have 1 goal and that is to hit and keep that Happiness.

Right?

um,um

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 19:59:48 GMT

Oh, Dna.

This Imus/Rutger thing is not a race/racist-driven issue.

Sorry for it to be portrayed as such but it's not. And while this has entirely 0 relevance, you want to mention the word ‘nigger’ and the sticks and stones adage, so let me comment on that… saying that the implications of a white individual - a white male in particular saying ‘nigger’ carries an entirely different connotation than what it would circulating among the black community. We both know this, there is no defense for it, but it is what it is. It’s a loaded gun on the lips of anyone other than black folk and people ought be smart about saying it, despite it being recycled so much in the mainstream that blacks become desensitized to it, losing the meaning of its origin (and intent/permission or not, Dna… which I didn’t really get, the word is meant to be insulting, oppressive and controlling) with everyone else, comfortable.

Because you just don’t know what could offend who. Right? So wouldn’t it be a fail-safe to just treat and speak to people the way you’d like to be? Such a simple thing, we don't need the constitution to point this out - you can't go wrong with it and yet people do and thus, Don Imus did -- regardless of what he said/says being considered merely "Imusspeak". Ideally, everyone is to be held accountable.

But one just can’t compare ‘nigger’ or even ’cracker’ to ‘nappy-headed hoes’. Words like that have a history, ‘nappy-headed hoes’ does not, so I’m not sure why you would bring that up since it really isn’t a race issue. People are mistakenly falling into the trap of it being decorated as prejudice - Sharpton and Jackson are capitalizing on it, exploiting what was only a white guy screwing the hell up and taking shit out of context. ‘Nappy-headed hoes’, it’s so ….stupid, you know he was trying to be funny. Imus is Imus. He says whatever about anyone…. Humor is the only reason why I’d watch it (when I could) because it’s entertainment at face value. His commentary is sometimes damn funny, I’m sorry. But that’s it.

I have to point out though. Blacks are not the only ones that are calling him a racist, so to say that blacks would be the hypocrites shouting ’Racist!’ after teaching their children ‘sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me‘.. uh, okay. But. On behalf of MSNBC and CBS and the corporations that back them, there Are white people who have said Imus has gone too far in the past time and time again, in defense of the networks’ move to get rid of him. But the point is, the choice to keep him despite his comments from before and allow it to continue to this point, would be hypocrisy on the networks and they are not black driven.

The man shouldn’t have lost his job. I feel kinda bad that he did… and embarrassed that Jackson and Sharpton have pushed this so very far when there’s a ton of other shit to worry about than some old-ass man. For real, for real. ~__~ So if you're merely expressing frustration over the incident, I feel it too, Dna. Haha, I'm not surprised it was you who commented on it; I was actually waiting to see if someone say something about it but I guess we tend to avoid stuff like this, since it's so sticky.

So anyway, I've been in search for colors to put in my hair, specifically blues or purples. ^__^ Someone from one of the LJ communities suggested a site that carries semi-permanent colors. Most of the pictures displaying the hair colors are by people who a) are blonde or b) have bleached their hair just so stuff would show up neon-like. ( Not trying to go that far o.o ) No one that I've seen with black hair, and that just annoys me. ~_~; I will be forced to experiment. Which is scary.

I asked LLP, just in conversation if she thinks the people who put all kinds of colors in their heads...... have jobs. XD It just makes me wonder is all.. to be considered professional and still be the spokesperson for Rainbow Brite. I hope the phoenix talks to the hair dresser lady and give me some info; I'm not about to bleach black. x_x No, no, no.

But this is what I want: Hoping It would be something like the second pic, cuz she looks like she has dark hair.

Picutres are from amphigory.com. They have neat, expensive stuff. ~_~;;

So um. Ow. Sudden headache.

Dreams

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 03:05:09 GMT

Dreams.

I had a baby.

It started with me sitting in the back of a van - like one of those commercial vans, with the back separated from the front. It was moving, apparently someone was driving it though I couldn't see their face and across from me, sat a young woman. We were seated on some boxes -- you know how this really opened? Like when Cloud and Sephiroth were going to Neblihelm(sp?) and they were in that truck... no, van. Yeah.

So anyway, there's this baby in my arms. Apart from the scene, I can see myself looking out the back windows, in a daze but I know what I'm thinking: 'omg, my parent's are gonna kill me - I can't go home and tell them I just had a baby.' I look down at her and try ot breast feed the kid but only... I could actually see the milk in my breast, like I had x-ray vision or something.

The baby doesn't respond, so I stop and continue to think about my parents kicking my ass.

The young woman across from me suddenly says, "You're not even playing with her." And takes the baby and starts trotting her on her knee. The baby is starts giggling - gets very animated.

Somehow or another we start talking about how exactly I had this baby and stuff about my parents killing me. And that I don't even know who the father is. The discussion results in her telling me I was at a party and had gotten drunk out of my mind, and therefore don't know what happened. I look out of the window and the scene rewinds, as if I'm trying to go back over what happened.

I'm suddenly at a party, drink in hand and carousing. As far as I remember, I'm surrounded by guys, no girls in sight except one and she was on a couch having sex with some guy. It wasn't me - didn't look like me - and it was all very vague so no crazy details. No one was paying attention to them anyways.

Anyway as I wonder around, very drunk, the guys there just turn and say, repeatedly, "I'm not the father. I'm not the father." Didn't even have to ask.

I get upset (apparently over the failure of finding the father and having this kid)... leave out the party and find myself walking down a street crying. I get to this huge-ass house with a big, big porch and just collapse in a corner of it, bawling like hell. After a moment, this new couple appears at the porch steps. They're talking/arguing in Spanish - the guy suddenly pulls out a gun and starts shooting into the air. A woman emerges from the house, starts fussing.

Then out of the house comes this other guy, entirely naked with really curly blond hair. Faceless.

He lays down on the porch beside me, while sobbing, hands me a white plastic jar with some reddish-pink stuff inside. He says, "Cover my body with this." The stuff's got the consistancy of strawberry jam or jelly. That's what it looked like. So I take a hand full and start rubbing it all over him, and in doing that, one thing leads to another....

Apparently he was the father of this baby I supposedly had.

Scene changes back to the van. I'm holding this baby and looking out of the window, with the sense that I Now know who the father is... I just don't know Where.

And then the dog wakes me up. ~_~

Dreams.

It would be my luck

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 01:57:47 GMT

Dnafein. Problem. Where are you?

...okay!

Sun, 25 Mar 2007 06:46:47 GMT

IN CONFUSED REJOICING OF "MY SISTER'S DAMN IPOD" COMING BACK FROM THE DEAD, MARCH 24, 2007 - 2:13AM.

And, I didn't have it charged. It just kicked back into working mode.

I NO UNDERSTAND.

Music II

Sun, 25 Mar 2007 05:29:51 GMT

In Frustrated Memory of "My Sister's Damn Ipod" - March 22, 2007. 12:46am.

Current fixations: T.M.Revolution and Rob Dougan

I've been trying my damned-est to find "Just Say Fuck No" by TMR. At first I was browsing as "Just Say Fuck You" and well, that wasn't right. And I still cannot locate it. There's only been a hand full of songs I want though I did manage to find "Web of Night" in the Japanese and English versions. This song will be my Sailormoon character theme, even though it was made for Spiderman. Don't ask and don't worry. ^_^ I will make it work. If I could find the instrumental - even better.

So sparkley.

Speaking of instrumentals, I easily got my RD stuff. Dougan composed the entire soundtrack for my Rise character, Gregory -- every song I had fit to varying degrees - and I love his style. I've found that no one would really recognize the main composer for The Matrix, would they?

Kimura Kaela and Gnarls Barkley

I hadn't even seen what Kaela looked like until the search was on for "TREE CLIMBERS" (all caps yes). I do believe she did "Count Down" which I cannot find either..... (I"ll have to ask Steph) but anyways, I was suprised to find her photos so normal looking. I do not so much favor her live performances but I still enjoy her music. =)

Refs: Heartsdales, Hikaru Utada, HOME MADE Kazoku, just off the top of my head, so's I won't forgets.

Gnarls Barkley, standing alongside DangerMouse (tall guy). His voice reminds me of Nina Simone's so much and I'm a bit frustrated that, with his/their recent (or not so recent) song "Crazy" being so popular, I cannot find "Necromancing" or "Gone Daddy Gone". A lot of people that I talked to, including my sister, thought the "Crazy" music video was whack. Being a psych major, I was like *Appreciate!*; no bling, no cars, no ghetto-fabulous women - you'd have to see it.

Refs: Nina Simone and Ray Charles

Meanwhile I've been listening to a lot of Michael Jackson to pass the time by.

[Insert M.J. picture here]

Refs: Prince, Weird Al Yankovich

...

What? That was wrong, wasn't it?

Meh.

omg, yo

Sat, 24 Mar 2007 06:53:00 GMT

I just read in Jamie's LJ that an animated movie for Dragonlance: Dragons of Autumn Twilight is being made.

Kay. I be fucking excited now.

Um. Oh. There is now a World Market in Richmond. *__* The only one I've ever been to was in California.

I came across it accidentally, playing around before work. Simon... I think he screwed up the schedules and I tried to clock at 4 and was supposed to be in at 6:30. So anyway, the time clock wouldn't me clock in. After I found out the correct time, I went back outside to play. =)

But yeah. World Market is like 100x better than Pier 1 Imports. And damn cheaper too.

I went inside, just to browse. And knowing me, somehow I found myself in the food area. Lol

But. But, but, but.

While I found everything interesting, all I thought to get was a pack of imported candies from Japan. The gummie thingies. Of all the flavors, I stared at the Muscat (Muskat?) and Litchi flavors.

What the hell are they?? And what do they taste like?

I gravitated towards the muscat to try it out.

In the end, I put it back because.... I didn't want to spend any money. *cheeeap, cheeep, cheeeeeap* Haha, say what you will, I'm about to spend $200 to get my hair braided tomorrow.

Anyway.

And a Dragonlance movie is in production, yo.

Oh and they had um, chocolate bandages. Not sure how that would work but I will be finding out.

Also. Dragonlance movie.

Music I: Pictures in Music... music and Pictures

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 06:25:05 GMT

So I can cry about the death of my ipod mini. 600+ songs, vanished without a trace. The second and final blow to my music archive since the breakdown of my laptop, which hosted 1200+. With the harddrive to that blown, everything was wiped clean. And now this. *sniff* I now am left to rebuild my library from memory alone.

Edit: This entry has helped to recall a lot of stuff, yay.

In doing so, I've come to realize that my brother has really good taste in music. Itused to be that he'd only listen to game soundtracks... which is alright but I'm glad he's broadened his scope of things, so to speak. He and I favor a lot of the same stuff, in the sense of it being always anime/game related and just having that bass flow, that urban quality that can separate a lot of what’s currently mainstream from what is truly…good. What is worth my time, since I’m the listener in my world. lol

So having said that, I picked up his Nujabes albums and added them to my ongoing collection. Nujabes = Jun Seba = <3.
Then surprisingly he had a lot of MINMI's stuff too. ?_?

How often can you listen to an artist’s entire album…and know that you’ll like, at the very least, 90% of it? I mean with unquestionable confidence? That doesn’t happen to me often and the only artists I’ve only grown to establish said confidence with is OutKast. I’ve got all their stuff, most recently Idlewild. The movie was something else - it had the eccentricity of Andre’ and just the down-to-earth..ness of Big Boi.

digression -The love/sex scene in that movie was like whoa. Prior to seeing Idlewild, I’d just seen ‘The Illusionist’ and the love scenes in both movies are basically identical. In ‘The Illusionist’, Sophie travels on horse back to the Eisenheim’s cottage, in some remote area away from town, right? …As soon as they hit the door, he’s taking her to the back room. Uh, dude, you know what’s gonna happen and I’m just like ~__~;;;;;;;;;; “Oh, God…“, cuz it struck me as a cheesy, get-it-over-with deal.

In ‘Idlewild’ Angel and Percival are all lonely for each other and she ups and heads to the mansion that is Percival’s (Father’s) house. But you didn’t know that until the scene suddenly switches to Angel standing in front of the place, in the damn rain. It’s storming, I mean lightning and rain and all… and her going to the door with Percival coming out to meet her is shot in ultra slow motion. Again, taking her to his room, you know what’s coming and I’m like *_____* “Oh. God.” XD Nothing cheesy about that one. /digression

…Where the hell was I?!

I was talking about music.

So yeah, my brother and I share music. We never go to sister for music suggestions (at least I don’t)… half the stuff she listens to, I can’t stomach. The other half…is just really lame to me. That’s not to talk bad about Rap or R&B - they are what I’m familiar with, but…. Don’t ask me a damn thing about these new Rap or R&B artists. Every blue moon, I’ll search for a song from something I’ve heard from the radio, entirely for the instrumental. Artist’s like Alicia Keys, John Legend (I met him three or four years ago, when he was the opening act for Ciara's debut in a 'Back to School' tour thingie), Jill Scott, OMG MAXWELL,

they’re so soulful. ^_^;;

.......dude, I forgot what I was gonna say. I... It's gone. Gone.

...

Look at what you did Maxwell. I cannot remember stuff.

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 03:46:57 GMT

Anyone need a half a bag of cat food? x_x The stray mama cat and kitten..... well, they're no longer around for reasons I'd rather not go into. Suffice it to say, I have a small bag of cat food I don't want to throw away. I know there are hungry cats around the world. ~_~;;

We like, We like to party!

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 18:15:51 GMT

I am really getting into this Sailor Moon RPG. Maybe a little too much o_o but things are going slow for LE, since Valena is sick and not at all for the Den, since the mods have been moving into a new apartment. Might as well immerse myself in something I hope I won't regret later, since I have been working on a profile for a new character and I've grown to dislike profiles.

...And also Mike is a moonie. XD I had no idea; he said to let him know how a SM RPG plays out, which I will once we get running. I'm glad he's out of the hospital. When Jerry told me, I was like wtf, cuz the day he went, I had caught him on AIM that afternoon... seemed like he was okay ...but he did say he was feeling under the weather. Damn. *hugs Jerry and Mike*

And Astarael is a FFIV fan. o.o That surprised me; she has an avatar featuring Edward and Tellah on LE. She asked me did I recognize it -- hahaha! Uh, hell yeah? I'm a fan..! ..........But seemingly not as much as I thought cuz I had to get Misty to tell me about the SPOON Astar mentioned. x_x

I also got to talk to Andrea (or Vid for those of you who remember), he was telling me that he's usually on Skype moreso than MSN. Everytime I talk to him, he's just coming back from traveling, like either around Milano or some other place. "Hill climbling on the sea". Ooh neat. And Ro IM'ed me, asking if I was gonna go back to PKD this summer. I don't know, I want to. I mean it's an amusement park so it was really fun to work there though they don't pay me what I'm making now. And besides, it's a chore driving back and forth 20miles everyday. If I could get parttime then maybe, one or two days a week.

The international students are so great to work with though. I told him to come back to America and he's like, nah "We dutch boyz killed that park" and I'm like... huh? He said they got into so much trouble, they wouldn't hire anyone from the Netherlands ever again.

I didn't get what he was saying but last season, he might have gotten into trouble from hanging around those VCU girls. I told him not to mess with them too much bringing alcohol and things back to the dorms. They only hung out with him cuz he's hot. Lol. He really is. XDXD

I forgot how much I love Jill Scott

Sat, 10 Mar 2007 05:08:26 GMT

...though I believe Mos Def wrote this. Excerpt from 'Love Rain'

I stretch my arms towards the sky like blades of tall grass,
The sun beat between my shoulders like carnival drums.
I sat still in hopes that it would help my wings grow
So then I could really be fly.
And then she arrived.
Like daybreak inside a railway tunnel,
~~like the new moon,
~~~like a diamond in the mines,
~~~~like high noon to a junker,

Sudden...
She made my heart beat in the now, now time signature,
Her skin a canvas for ultra violet brush strokes.
She was the sun's painting,
she was a deep cogniac color,
Her eyes sparkle like lights along the new city,
Her lips purses if her breath was too sweet and full for her mouth to hold.

I said:
"You are the beautiful distress of mathematics,"
I said:
"For you, I will peel open the clouds like new fruit,
And give you lightning and thunder as a dowry,
I will make the sky shed all of it's stars like rain,
And I will clasp the constellations across your waist,
And I will make the heavens your keep.
And they will be pleased to cover you,
they will be pleased to cover you,
May I please... cover you...
...Please...

That's excellent. I just love that. So awesome. *___* Kinda reminds me of the poem that Michael wrote for me a couple of years ago. ~_~ I remember sending LLP an email - emails! - nothing short of panic, cuz I didn't know what to do. He started talking to me for a few days, first time we ever saw each other at the university library - yeah, he worked (works) there - and then just popped up with a piece of folded paper.

I disappeared right after. I only visited the library for a paper I had to do that semester; had no other reason to go since it was out of my way. I didn't mean to.. it was maybe a few weeks after I went back to return some books. Perhaps it was some unconscious impulse, putting it on having finished the paper and I just.. stopped going.

But then I saw him that day and I knew I hurt him cuz I didn't get back with him after he wrote me the poetry. He gave me this off the shoulder glance, no smile, no hello and man... I don't think I ever felt that bad in my life.

I remember complaining to Beau that the guy was "weak" though I didn't know him all that well to label him such. I took his soft-spoken temperament as weakness - I still have no idea how I came to do that. Cuz I'm not outspoken at all myself but I know how to get my point across when I need to and project it with volume in my voice. Michael... every time he talked me, he did it in hushed tones or whispers. I had to sometimes lean close to hear him.

Maybe because we were in a library? o.o I ...just thought of that but still.

Or was it that he was trying to get his mac on and didn't want everyone to know what he was up to?

And its not that I reciprocated the gestures in the first place. I was polite and flattered but ... I was there to get my work done, not flirt. Honestly. On top of that ....he was 30 and I was 22. So I strongly thought he was too old for me.

What a dork. :(

So yeah, I ache sometimes... thinking... about the guys I've let pass up for various reasons (except Flavin, old-ass bastard - he turned 52 last month) none strong enough to deny engaging in a friendship at least. But I did so anyway.

And for what? For what, I'm asking?

...

Listening to her music makes me think of stuff I shouldn't.. stuff I would normally neglect. ~_~; But she's really awesome. What a woman.

wwe

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 03:52:41 GMT

Oh snap, even before the crash of glass was heard, I knew it was Stone Cold! It just had to be!!

STONE COLD STEVE AUSTIN!!! Guest ref for the Battle of Billionaires - Trump vs McMahon!! EeEeeeeEEEEeeek!

*____________*

AND DUDE - MICK FOLEY!!

*DIES* It's times like these, I swear...

...

What I wouldn't give to go to Wrestlemania 23....

americasaves and other junk

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 01:36:03 GMT

I yoinked this from Da Zappaz..!

Your Existing Situation
Persistent. Demands what she feels to be her due and endeavors to maintain her position intact
Your Stress Sources
Unfulfilled hopes have led to uncertainty and apprehension. Needs to feel secure and to avoid any further disappointment, and fears being passed over or losing standings and prestige. Doubts that things will be any better in the future and this negative attitude leads her to make exaggerated demands and to refuse to make reasonable compromises.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense, leaving her rather isolated in her attachments.
Feels trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way of gaining relief. Able to achieve satisfaction from sexual activity.
Your Desired Objective
Feels she has been unjustly and undeservedly treated and betrayed in her hopes. Disgruntled and in revolt against her existing circumstance which she considers an affront.
Your Actual Problem
Disappointment at the non-fulfillment of her hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety. She tries to escape from this by withdrawing and protecting herself with an attitude of cautious reserve. Moody and depressed.

And, cuz I remember doing something like this before only with Cologenics - it really is the same thing.

At this particular time, you are feeling that you are or were unjustly and undeservedly treated and/or betrayed in your hopes and dreams. You feel that everything is against you. But look on the bright side for you are, whether you believe it or not, a survivor.

You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image in the eyes of others. You are looking for acknowledgement from your peers and those who come into your sphere of influence. You want to be liked, not for what people think of you but for what you really are.

You are a rather inhibited sort of person. This could be the result of your upbringing or of your schooling, whatever. You are able to obtain satisfaction from various forms of physical or emotional activity but all in all you are inclined to be emotionally withdrawn. As a consequence of this you find it difficult to sustain any deep involvement.

All of the stress and strains resulting from disappointment have led to agitation and anxiety. You have been going out of your way to make a good impression, but you have reservations as to the likelihood of succeeding. You feel that you have a right to accomplish all that you set your mind on but you have become helpless and distressed when circumstances have gone against you. The idea of failure is most upsetting and this can even mean utter dejection. You see yourself as a scapegoat and you feel everyone in your sphere of influence has tried to take undue advantage of you. You are trying to convince yourself that your failure to achieve standing and recognition is not of your making but indeed of those around you.

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. But that is not the answer. You have the power to succeed, believe in yourself... all is possible to him who believes.

Funny, as I was looking to post this, Petey asked about the same thing I was wondering about -- I didn't even know about Rich Text.

...

Anyway, I was reading the paper today and it had a snippet about tips to save money. I totally have to save this, post to memories or something cuz I'll lose the link (like all the other stuff I did when my laptop crashed) or end up forgetting.

It says *adjusts glasses*...

~cutting soda consumption by a liter a week saves $6 a month, or $72 a year
~bringing lunch to work saves $3 a day, or $720 a year
~eating out two fewer times a month saves $30 a month, or $360
~paying credit-card bills on time to avoid late fees saves $25 a month, or $300 a year. (Did we not learn this the hard way Monie? Monie: Yes, yes we did. )

And it says
~people living paycheck to paycheck might try to get a savings program going when they get their next raise.

That was taken from the Richmond Times Dispatch but actually from Americasaves.org

...

I just got over a cold early last month, how could I have caught another so quick?! x_x

Is it just me or does LJ not want me to view my friend's page?

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 05:09:36 GMT

Yay for direct deposit and online banking. I think I'm finally getting the hang of this. ~______~ It's all in an effort to keep my ass from spending more than I can chew. And... well I can chew a lot, I can.

Upside, I finally worked my way to getting my laptop fixed. I bought a chillpad for it so that it won't overheat anymore. It seems to be working pretty well. It was either get this blasted thing fixed or hunt for a Wii this pay period.

No one has Wiis where I live though. ...Mom even wants one. ~_~; While at Circuit City, I came across this neat little device that allows multiple systems to be hooked up to the tv simultaneously. Xbox 360, PS2 and Gamecube. If they only had outlets for a saturn, genesis, sega cd and a 64, that'd have been something special.

I played a bit of Animal Crossing last night. x_x There's so many weeds in my town... I gave up. I also finally got the last house and have to pay over 700,000 Bells. Damn.

Through various attempts, I got Deadpool to stay in the games. He seems like a likable fellow and has even asked for some advice on things. ...I makes me wonder just what went on between him and Mingan. And I joined another rpg against my better judgment; I had to though since Suzanne created it... and she's awesome at her fanfictions. Two nights ago, I logged onto LE only to run across a troll. The guy spammed the RPG Forum and the Welcome Room. I thought his commentary actually fit GB but ..*shrug* I don't think I panicked ^_^; but I was abit 'o.o omg what to do?!' chasing his posts across the forums and the only mod on at the time. So I stayed up monitoring him, until I figured he left then went to bed. ~_~

Grumpie explained that we could also text-ban members. I didn't know that. It's like robbing people of their voice. I think that's just neat for assholes.

I think that's just neat for assholes. ^_^

LE and ego trippin

Tue, 20 Feb 2007 07:35:44 GMT

I told Redd I would gladly stick my foot up the ass of the guy that was giving her problems, if only to save her the trouble of getting her hands dirty. It seems like she’s bent on saving a friendship that she really doesn’t need -- that she can do well enough (or better - ha!) without. I wish I could get her see.. I don’t think the person is worth the trouble, and I ain’t even roleplayed with the guy.

So last night, while she and I were going over some new set of rules for the Drow Houses, she’s like.. telling the dude that I want to talk to him. I only asked her if the guy in question was on Aim or not out of sheer curiosity. I would have ended up telling him something that no one else seems like they have the guts to say to him -- damn being a mod. If I lose the status, I’d still be satisfied for letting him know what I think of him.

‘Cuz the truth tends to hurt sometimes, doesn’t it?

And I'mma still do what I do, regardless. And that's to support the RPG Forum and the people in it, I was doing that long before becoming moderator. So.. it dun matter.

I’m like, drop the ego-guise, cuz it’s outplayed, outdated and outrageously annoying. I hate it when peeps think they can get their way all the time. I haven’t made friends with him, so there’s no hesitancy in my letting him know what the hell’s going down. I just don’t want him giving her a hard time. I don’t want her worried cuz she’s got kids and a husband -- just family and family matters to tend to. And she’s a good person.

But all this behind the scenes, whiny-ass bullshit - I ain’t having it, man. It’s boys and their egos, yo. I’m not having it. I’ve been through it and enough is enough. There is no way I’m letting him boss her around, not anymore.

He can bitch and bitch and bitch... and bitch some more and bitch till the cows come home and bitch till kingdom come and bitch till he’s blue in the face--

-- but it’s so very *hard* to taste his own medicine? It goes down bitter and he can’t take what he dishes out - why the fuck is that?

Everybody else has gotten involved for various reasons... Abhorsen got online tonight asking me what was up -- I couldn’t tell him a damn thing. And it wasn’t that I wouldn’t, I couldn’t. Astarael IM’s me, basically wanting the same. [insert weary sigh here] She left me wondering just what Dnafein told her...

***

And Joshie, what do you want to do, man? Are you purposefully ignoring me or are you just as clueless as I am that I’ve emailed you and then PMed you as well?

I thought you said no more drama?

Tue, 20 Feb 2007 07:00:45 GMT

Ah-haha, thanks Thomas..!

What Power is Compatible With You? [beautiful anime pictures + 12 detailed results]

~*~Result nr 9~*~

Your power is: Being a controller of an element

Explanation: Wether it is earth, fire, air or water or even all of them, you can control that element. That means you can manipulate their pysichal form and with just thoughts and make an inferno for example. In good purposes it can be used to protect but in evil purposes it is used to hurt.
As a person you are slightly 'odd'. People see you as different and probably has prejudices against you. They see you as 'weird' or the 'freak', and either that hurts really much or you chose to ignore it. You keep your hatred for people inside and probably daydream about killing them, which gives you satisfaction. Truth is you are not evil, only missunderstood and mistreated.
Negative aspects: Since you have deep problems inside you could get into some sort of mental illness or simply get depressed (if you aren't already).

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LE Report

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 19:48:50 GMT

Hrm, hrm, hrm.

So I'm trying to figure out what the problem is between Deadpool and Mingan (Valena) and try to get him to come back to the rpgs. It really does hurt the forum when someone leaves the games since LE's RPG section doesn't have the massive turnover rate like General Babble does. It almost upsets me because GB is really nothing but threads chocked full of spam -- well, 90% of them anyway and I've never been a fan of spam. I'd be lying if I said I would have protested if Rivka *did* decide to get rid of GB. I mean, the section is good for somethings but the mods over there *always* have their hands full it seems. That's why I rarely go over there. The rpgs always held so much more substance in my mind (aside from the peeps in the fanfiction area for, they too, have props). ^_^

But the guy isn't giving me anything to work with and so I can't help him. *slumps* It's doubly hard when 1) a person can't even acknowledge there IS a problem and 2) doesn't want to be helped. And yet he's complaining to me that other mods have gotten on his case and that he's getting flack for his writing style -- nothing spellcheck and proofreading wouldn't help. I'm SO sure.

So I was like, dude, lemme help you. We all can use some improvement. People talking about how you write will be the least of your worries with some suggestions, so how about it? I sure as hell wouldn't want peeps in my face for that.

Naw, dude wants to change names and "start over". Well. Okay, I tried.

Can't please everyone, right?

Speaking of LE, I'm still hovering over the idea of the PotM awards -- and yes, Dna, I know how you feel about it, as I suspect from a few others. But the deciding factor, whether it's liked or not, is the majority rule. If enough rp'ers say they want it, we, the mods have no other choice but to figure out how to resurrect it and keep it rolling. I, personally, am vying for it to be brought back, because there's been too many players that have not gotten the chance to be recognized.

Of course, that's not to say that it wouldn't be something akin to a popularity contest - in fact, I hadn't thought about that at all until Justin pointed it out to me, a while back. At the same time, I can think of a few players that got nominated and actually won who *couldn't possibly* have been popular whatsoever. Valena, for God's sake and myself.

If Darkstar (LE member) and Evan can take the reins and actually inspire some participation for the awards.. far be it for me to knock'em down. I mean, I can't. I hope Dire and Redd feel the same way. I just hope feelings don't get dashed against the rocks in trying to work it.

I really need to talk to them about Justin's suggestions. I'd rather not do it in the moderators section though. ...I can never get in touch with Dire -- EVA. =( I keep thinking about her baby. When is she having her BAY-BEH and will post pictures!? *slumps*

...

Okay kiddies, today's magic number is 22. That's 11 twice over or 20 + 2; can you say twenty-two? Let's try to use it in a sentence, a-okay, hooray?

"Although trying her best, the girl was not able to read the twenty-two page report thirty minutes before going into work. Needless to say, it was spawned from mind of an insane person."

Very good, children...! (lol ...actually it wasn't even all that bad.. from what I managed, ah-haha)

...

Zap, how you holding up? I hope better than before.

Bandwagon's full. Please, catch another

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 06:32:44 GMT

So Misty got me to thinking about blocking. ^_^;;

The usage of blocking through AIM. No, she did not recommend anything of the sort, so let’s not go there. But anyways.

I’ve never blocked anyone, until last month. Even when LLP suggested I block certain people, a dark phoenix (Kelly for those who would remember) for example, I could never bring myself to do it. Even those nights he succeeded in thoroughly pissing me off, there was always something about his conversation I wanted to listen to. ...Honestly a big part of it was, was because I knew a lot of people who didn’t like him. I remember Momo having a surreal loathing for the guy. ^_^;; I mean surreal and I know she won’t deny it.

[digress] In hindsight, I probably feel sorry for him because I’ve heard his sob story a thousand times over. *shrug* At the same time, he’s not ever given me a reason to honestly *dislike* him, aside for conversation (and that was just when I was weary and longed for him to ’Give it a rest, man!’). I had heard a shit load of things about him but it wasn’t for me to pass judgment until having seen/experience it for myself. Which I hadn‘t/haven‘t. Which is why we remain talking buddies.[/digress]

But like I said, I never used it. I always thought it was stupid and rather immature and never really understood the nature of it. If you didn’t want to see a certain person or certain people, simply take them off your buddy list. ...It took me a while to figure out that by blocking, you’re disallowing *them* to see *you* online. Duh, right?

I just didn’t know. And never had a reason to put it into practice - either I talked to everyone or everyone talked to me and there were never any problems. And I’ve been ‘tigerofeblana’ for as long as I can remember. Never had a reason to change names, still don’t. And ain’t gonna.

So for the first time, I used the block feature. Am using it. Won’t be, because I’ve suddenly hit the wall where you can‘t do anything more to push me through it. It’s like expecting the unexpected - you got to. You have to - in order to not be taken by surprise.

And you won’t take me by surprise again. Please believe it.

...Like expecting an elephant to drop out of the sky. You’d never think it’d happen but damn. Suddenly you’re lying on the ground under an elephant. Who knew? (XD)

So in talking to Misty-sama, I got to thinking I don’t know if I’m grateful Darkstar collapsed or not. It was through that, ultimately Aywren, yes, that I got to know some great people and through them, have had some great experiences. Who knew what might have happened had Darkstar not turned into Wayrift.

Of course, at the same time, if it wasn’t for the collapse (or whatever you want to call it), I never would have been put into a position of desiring a new place of refuge. ...I doubt I would have found Lavender Eyes and become a member. And met allll the roleplaying junkies, I know. ^___^ I’m so glad I did. I know I have a spot there that I’ve made my own and it won’t be erased frivolously.

...I think if people were happy where they were, satisfied and changes had not been made, Joshie wouldn’t have created the Den...

...

Zap, have you heard of 'This Ain't a Scene, It's A God-Damn Arms Race'..? Here's some of the lyrics in haphazard fashion:

I am an arms dealer
Fitting you with weapons in the form of words
And I don't really care, which side wins
As long as the room keeps singing
That's just the business I'm in

This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
I'm not a shoulder to cry on, but I digress

Bandwagon's full. Please, catch another

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate

All the boys who the dance floor didn't love
And all the girls whose lips couldn't move fast enough
Sing until your lungs give out

Are they not, at least, a bit fitting of someone we know? XD I thought so when I found the song.

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 05:08:04 GMT

[rant]

You know what sucks a monkey's ass?

Interest rates.

I don't even *know* what it is on my car, but when I went to find out the payoff on it today, it's like $1300. I was startled. ...I mean, that's better than the 10G's it started with but I could have *sworn* it was that, like, 6 months ago. I check almost every season to keep up with the progression of payments. I *know* I'll have the thing paid off this year, but I was sincerely hoping I'd have it paid in full before the end of Spring. Now it's more like.. the end of Summer. x_x

I was ...depressed. The lady was like, it changes daily based on the interest rates. Yeah, I figure that but hadn't given it any thought. Great, just great. The bad thing is... I'm paying on something... I really don't want. But it's like, I know I'm blessed to have what I have, so I might as well keep going until it's mine. Only THEN will I have the option of trading it in or something cuz I sure as hell can't refinance it at $1300. That'd be utterly fool-like. /rant

At any rate, I went and got two tickets to see Tyler Perry's play 'What's Done in the Dark', that mom's been bugging me about. I'm SO. FRIGGIN. JAZZED he's coming to Richmond, man. Just the fact that he'll be in town in April... *headshake* I've seen all, if not most, of his plays/movies in dvd form - it'll be unreal to actually see a play. The only thing I'm miffed about is that Medea won't be in this one. T_T Medea is so love... *___* Lol.

He's the reason mom wants to come with me to GA. Apparently he opened some studio down there in Atlanta (everything's in goddamn ATL!) or, at the very least, it's a base for his plays. This is an excerpt from his latest message on his webpage.

-Feb 5

As I drove up the mountains and through the valleys and through the
desert it all was so spiritual for me. Now I'm not trying to be deep
here (LOL), but it's so much like life. You will go through a lot of
things-ups, downs, heartaches and disappointments, but if you keep on
going then you will get to your destination. So, don't stop now,
'cause I'm not (Smile).

He was going to LA. And that was me two years ago, driving through the mountains, valleys and desert in Cali. ^_^ I can't say it was a spiritual thing but.. it was different. So anyway, he's awesome and I can't help but wonder why he doesn't have a woman. >_>

Or does he? <_< Ah well.

Fiiyyaahh..!

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 06:05:29 GMT

stolen from one of the lj'ers in the 50bookschallenge XD

In the year 2007 I resolve to:
Learn to eat fire.

Get your resolution here.

and..!

In the year 2007 I resolve to:
Teach my dog to fly.

Get your resolution here.

lol XD

sistah, sistah

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 05:51:33 GMT

Tryin to figure out how to make this work -- gettin down to Atlanta.

As far as I see it, I was... 70% playin and 30% for real. The percentages have changed over the last few days; I find myself contemplating it every now and then, wondering how the hell I'm gonna pull it off.

Going to both I mean. DC and AWA.

I was talking to ma about it over dinner. She was in a good mood..sorta (more on that later) and so I was just tossing stuff at her in a not-so-serious way and surprisingly, she was really receptive.

Such as me wanting to move to Boston.

Mom: Okay, maybe we can take a trip there to see how we like it.
Me: *winces at the 'we'* ...No, I mean I think *I* would like to move north.
Mom: Oh. ...Well how do you know I wouldn't want to move?
Me: *looks away*

And then wanting to go to the cons.

Me: I'm going to Georgia in September for my birthday.
Mom: Oh yeah? We can plan the family trip around it. (semi-excited)
Me: *grimaces* Well, I going to these two conventions. *explains what they are* They're almost.. what.. two or three weeks between each other.
Mom: Okay, I'll go with you.
Me: ....*weird look*
Mom: Where are you gonna stay?
Me: Ah, I was gonna book a room where the cons take place -- actually, you remember Jen? I think I'm gonna share a room with her.
Mom: Uh-huh. But if you let me go, you wouldn't have to worry about spending any money. *smile*
Me: *twitch* ~I know that dammit~ Right...but..
Mom: Atlanta has resorts; we can go there instead of South Carolina.
Me: ~$%^&*....~
Mom: We can even fly if you want. *turns to sis* You wanna go?
Sis: Uh.. no?
Mom: Josh?
Bro: Noooo.
Me: *relief*

Yeah, I got ...a bit of time to work on her. *bites lip* But she's right. Financially, her and dad are my life line and I'd have access to the resort/hotels that belong to their timeshare... and the SUV.

Honestly, I don't think I have a problem with her going. I was talking to Redd, the other rpg mod in LE and she's like my mom's age. She said more than likely, if she isn't in to the scifi/fantasy thing.. the won't like it. At least, that's for DragonCon. Anime Weekend Atlanta would probably scare her off with all the cosplay that'll be going on, LLP pointed out to me. Mom said she'd be willing to stay at the resort while I go and do my thing but after dinner, sis pulls me to the side and says... she didn't want me leaving mom in a room/place, in another state by herself -for *any* amount of time.

I was like.. yeah, I gotcha. I had to agree. Yeah. All three of her children thinks she gets... ditzy; has her 'where am I?' spells every now and then. ~_~;

~*~

I totally spent the day with her (mom) cuz, to make a long, long ass story short, we both were off. I *planned on*:

~Sleeping
~Washing a jacket
~Sleeping
~Playing on the comp
~Sleeping

Hee. Didn't turn out that way.

Dropping my brother off at school, 9am, I'm in the doctor's office with her... and before my mom's gets called, Dad has phoned the clinic (me or mom NEVER keep our cells charged ~_~;;;) from New York (he's in NY, apparently he got called on his cell) telling her that my Sister got:

1)2 tickets for
~~a) going 40 in a 25 area
~~b) driving without a valid license (I think it was) BECAUSE..!
2) it was suspended for a prior incident where she was ticketed for being in the car with a friend and Not wearing a seatbelt back in the summer. (in the state of friggin VA, if you're a minor getting ticketed, you have to attend a ...driver's improvement class or some bullshit - even I didn't know that and *I* had a string of parking tickets at 17 my first year in college.. but it's not a moving violation, so I suppose it's different -bleh..)
~~a) She didn't go to the class. DMV said they sent out a notice but.. well, we didn't get it. (or tossed it out with junk mail)
~~b) Therefore her license got suspended.
3) her jeep got towed. So she (and a friend she went to pick up who missed the bus) ended up hiking it to school.

Oh god. Mom's spazzing out in the doctor's office and I'm ....just... I dunno. o.o

A few hours pass between going to get her from school, camping out in DMV, going to get brother from school, mom gets back to the doctor. Us three in the car, sister is just out of it, I'm calling the towing place, the driving school, and the numbers on the tickets to find out how much the fines are. Brother's adding it up.

~$120 to get the car out of the towing place
~$115 to get reinstate her license
~$136 for the speeding ticket ($61 + $5 for every mile over the speedlimit)
~$55 for the improvement class itself
~I keep thinking there's a fine for the suspended license ticket.. but I didn't hear anything from the recording. She's gotta go to court for that anyway, so maybe not.

I'll be paying for her class at least, since I did volunteer to help her out. Meh, siblings.

Um.. oh yeah, that wasn't the end of it. After dinner, she gets called by another friend from basketball. Turns out they had a game, no one knew, she goes back to school. ...On the way home, she's riding with *said friend*, Shamika.

Shamika gets pulled over for going 39 in a 25. And she will *also* be attending the Driving class and court. Sis tells me her grandma was ...was just going off.

Actually when we got home to drop off my sister's vehicle and pile into one car to go out to dinner, a cop had drove up to the house *right* behind us.

Everyone: O.O

She said she just got a call from ADT saying the alarm in the house was going off. We
didn't hear anything, but apparently ADT said the DOG set off the motion sensors. Suddenly. At that point we were gone from the house from 8:30 to like.. 5, so... I mean... ~_~ Ah. Animals. That's a $15 fee for having the cop to investigate by the by.

Sis: This has been the worse day of my life....
Me: *hugs her* Yeah.. but uh.. you're gonna owe me for the class. ^_^;
Sis: x_x I know, I know but...!
Me: You ain't gotta pay me back, I mean. But.. daddy (with his bright ideas!) sprinkled rock salt on my car sayin it was gonna snow, ya know. (lol I exploded that morning XD it didn't even snow) And.. he put those bags of mulch in my trunk..

(dad: "to give it some weight, so the car won't slip and slide on the road" me: "...it's a 2, 3 ton machine, how much heavier will 3 bags of mulch make it?!")

..and one of'em ripped against the jack.
Sis: *mouth drops*
Me: Yeah.. it needs vaccuming inside too. I mean.. bad. Aaaannnd...And, And...

Ah. My sistah. ~_~

..we fly high... no lie... you know this... Ballin..!

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 08:11:33 GMT

So Justin and I were talkin about going to the Dragon Con in Georgia.

TigerofEblana: okay
TigerofEblana: lol I just got an idea... when you mentioned if my car would make it to GA.... I know my parent's suv would... and I just contemplated sleeping in it ^_^;;
TigerofEblana: I mean.. it seats 7 people comfortably
TigerofEblana: and the windows are tinted... so I'd.... lol I'd sleep in it
TigerofEblana: ^_^;;;
Dnafein: okay but if we get caught we could get in trouble. However.
TigerofEblana: that's me being cheap, yo
TigerofEblana: how?
TigerofEblana: find some places in the back of the hotel?
Dnafein: How about I talk to nie about the hotel before we decide on sleeping in the SUV
TigerofEblana: Lol
TigerofEblana: okay Justin

lmfao... I’m serious, dude. I’m totally about savin a dolla. Dolla, Dolla bills, yall. XD Omg though.. if that thing didn't burn up gas like a mac truck though.. I'd just shine up the rims, clean the carpet....dude, I could drive down GA.. I drove 90% of the time while in California - LITERALLY through the desert, the mountains and into the city of Annaheim, which is near LA... and back again to the resort. At least 8 of the 14 days we were there. The traffic up against the mountains was unspeakable and put my mom out of commission. I can DO the eastcoast dammit.

I'm telling you. I felt so powerful in my driving skillz after Cali, NOBODY could tell me a thing. lol I was just thinking earlier this week ..after this guy (on his cell) ran a red light and would have hit me in an intersection since I was the first car in line for the green... "I'm glad God gave me the SENSE to look out for FOOLS out here, man..." ...Something told me he wasn't going to stop... and he didn't either -- argh, where's a cop when you need'em!

Annnyywayyy at the same time, I was talking to LLP about going to AWA - Anime Weekend Atlanta... and I accidently clicked out that IM.. dang. Anyway. She started saying something about how they have Yaoi panels late at night. Of course, not ever having been and equally not knowing what the hell she's talking about, I'm curious, yo.

Are they showing actual.. like.. reenactments of stuff or what? XDXD Then it struck me.. she said 'yaoi' as opposed to 'porn'... but then.. one can draw a fine line between'em at that, so.

I want to go to both. *whine/throws a fit* ...They're around my birthday too? Oh, hell yeah. DC before and AWA after. September'll be off the chain. That'd be the happiest 25th ever. ....I'mma take out a loan and just stay in GA for the month.

On the real. It'll be my 25th. I'll be too old to do damn near anything then -- I don't go anywhere, anyway, right? Right.

Va, I am OUT! See ya! XD

qwsde5cyvgujlb m

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 07:25:36 GMT

I'm kinda bored right now.

I had... I can't even remember what I had to eat today. Some guy was going door this afternoon, offering to make salads for peeps if they have a look at his demo for some chopping machine. ...Salad master or some such. I dunno what it was cuz I left the kitchen after mom took over. But the salad he made and left was good considering I dislike red cabbage. It had that... carrots, apples, cucumbers ...yellow squash and cheese, all shredded together. It was good, even without dressing.

While I was home I made two coconut pies. I didn't mean to make two but only after I mixed the first three ingredients... whatever they were, I couldn't cut the recipe in half like I intended. Well... it ain't like it's Not gonna get eaten. I thought they didn't taste like anything but that's because I'm dealing with this horrible cold. I'm mean I'm all congested and my voice is half gone...and drinking milk getting ready to spoil and not at all noticing.

Mmmm. Yum.

x_x I just Ache. All. Over. And I can't sleep. Not without taking something to help me fall asleep, anyways. I've been thinking of getting some of that AmbienCR. That's for another entry tho.

Good news is I've caught up in all my games... blue legacy notwithstanding, cuz I simply don't know what's been planned for that, if any thing. Whether or not it involves me, at least in the first episode, I'm sure I'll find out in due time. But even so, this is a good pace for me. The four in LE and IN. Valena is still trying to get me to join a fourth game of hers. Mystra bless her heart. ~_~;;

*sneeze = ache* >_<

I think I'm gonna go upstairs and try to crochet a bit more of my blanket since I'm stealing the last roll of white yarn I found in my mom's sewing stuff. She won't miss it. Even at 5' x 2' the thing is so warm. A little too wide to be a scarf, I could use it as a shawl, unfinished. ..But nah, it's gonna be a blanket, a striped black, gray and white blankey. My blankey. I've already made myself a purple and black hat reminiscent of Link's from Zelda. Even though I have no idea where it is. ~_~;

...Okay, it's so time to... do something else.

P.S. I was rooting for Marcel. Ilan should not have won Top Chef.

P.P.S. Zap, honey, if you should read this before I see you on AIM (whenever that'll be), I have the email you sent me.. but the pictures, gmail wouldn't let me view the pictures. Do you have photobucket links?